Don’t know about anyone else, although I suspect there may be a few of you. But my digestion woes seem to correspond directly with my anxiety or stress levels.
It’s like the gut reacts to my worries by giving me a brand new one to deal with. I mean, this had me so messed up that I had nearly convinced myself that I may have cancer at one point. Really, stomach? That’s what you want for me. But yeah, really. That’s what went down last summer when I lost myself in a nightmare within a nightmare around my physical health and its on/off relationship with my mental health. Those two just can’t get along. Like Jonathon Hart and his lovely wife, when they met it was murder.
So, therefore, I did the therapist thing, and you see for an Irishman over a certain age, that is a BIG taboo, a big one. But hey, after talking to my better half and deciding as a husband, a parent and also an individual, that it was a pretty good move. And, you know what, it really was. Now I only went for one session and while some of you may think that “how can you get anything from just one session” well, I did, I got a lot. The counselor was able to persuade me to focus on what is real and not to build unnecessary connections between a dicky stomach and a terminal disease. Other points including, growing up without a dad, not wanting the same for my son, little bit of a previous love affair with alcohol and some other invaluable stuff. Oh, I also realised that I may sometimes torpedo any chance of real happiness as I am just programmed that way. Though, I now realise that we can rewrite the program or at least edit it and just tweak ourselves to make it all the more manageable. The truth is, we need to want to though, and we need to be able to zone in on the things that are corrupting our core system and isolate the BS and block out the negative stuff as much as we can. It can be hard when sometimes you are up to your neck in negativity and physically work in an area that reflects the dictionary meaning of social exclusion. But what are you gonna do right?