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Stone pillow

Stone pillow

Night again. Awake again. Millions of half baked ideas battering the inside of my head. None of them whole, fragmented shards of my derailed train of thought. Where the hell is this solace I’ve heard so much about? Can’t get used to this insomnia thing even after all these years.

Edge of sleep

Edge of sleep

Yep. Right on the cusp. Teetering on the edge before drifting through an ever anxious barrier toward complete unconsciousness. Peaceful slumbers are rare, especially the moments that surround it’s perimeter at either end of the ritual. Though we must try. “Sleep those little slices of death, how I loathe them” – Edgar Allan Poe or “A nightmare on elm St” depending on which artistic slant you take. Then a sharp goodnight to all, a new day awaits. What of that…

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Futility

Futility

When things are becoming derailed it’s easy to forget the bigger picture and focus on the broken part that led to that point. Perspective is absolutely key. It is absolutely futile to focus on such things, but the mind exhibits a thirst for all that is unnecessary and broken. That is a norm in itself created by oneself. Break those norms, regain perspective.

Obsession

Obsession

Is obsession a bad thing? Depending on the context, depending on the subject matter. I love music, I mean L.O.V.E it Nat King Cole style. Not just the silky smooth sounds that hang pleasantly in the air, but the whole package. I love reading about it, love collecting it in its many guises, I love to discuss, to critique, to evaluate. Damn it I love to smell it. That musty smell of vinyl sleeves in a second hand store, its…

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Lets get Real and Pray forth I beseech thee.

Lets get Real and Pray forth I beseech thee.

It would be fair to say that I dont like my Mother in law. Nearly a year past since we spoke due to her outbursts toward me, my wife and my own family. To be fair to her, it is apparent that she has an undiagnosed mental health issue that propels her to the peak of mother in law from hellness. Though, when you love your wife and want to grow and mature as a living entitity you may agree…

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The nightless sleep or sleepless night

The nightless sleep or sleepless night

If your reading this, then you will probably know along with anxiousness and such, that insomnia seems to follow you around like a needy puppy. Indeed after setting up this blog for the first time last night, a night of restlessness soon followed with the thoughts of the day and even the following day (today) still bouncing around my head like a newly punctured balloon. Bouncing around and around and around. From my experience, my anxiousness seems to coincide with…

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